It’s was the beginning of November 2002, and my Jace*—- is back in San Angelo. He was so happy to be home and I was happy that he is was there also. He could finally relax and feel free to be himself.
We were back to our marathon phone calls and instant messaging each other on AOL. I loved to hear his voice but, I also loved his written words. Many times, I would print out our conversations. I love to read them over and over again.
It just depended on how Jace*—- felt or how tired he was whether we would talk or write any given night. Then there were the nights when we kept getting kicked off the internet. Ahhh, the wonders of dial up. I wondered if there would ever be a more efficient and easier way to connect with a computer.
Here is part of one evening’s conversation on the computer:
Mermaid3389: I’ve been as far as Carlsbad, New Mexico
Rumpld4skn: I use to drive by there, when I was pushing a rig
Mermaid3389: There is beauty to the area
Rumpld4skn: I appreciated nature’s indifference to man
Rumpld4skn: Oh yes…. A beauty to everything…..
Mermaid3389: I use to go to New Mexico once in a while
Rumpld4skn: the shallow judge…. The sensitive-deep…. Appreciate
Mermaid3389: have you been to the caves
Rumpld4skn: no….. but, when I lived in Austin, there’s a cave that’s full of bats ….. was cool to visit
Rumpld4skn: there is also hundreds of bats that live under the congress ave bridge….. dusk was most enchanting
Mermaid3389: the cave was very interesting and did have a sense of beauty
Mermaid3389: but I must admit I was frightened of the bats
Rumpld4skn: a beauty that envelopes the self…. Makes one aware of one’s insignificance and significance, simultaneously……
Rumpld4skn: bats won’t bother…. They’re insectivores…..
Mermaid3389: yes that was what I was told but….. ummmmm……I was afraid that they might have rabies
Rumpld4skn: but attacking humans is not their forte
Rumpld4skn: now if they feel threatened….. different story
Mermaid3389: I know baby……. I’m just a whimp…. Lol
Rumpld4skn: I know the animal kingdom well…..
Mermaid3389: so if we see the wilds together I will stay close to my man ….. as I know I will be safe with you by myside
Rumpld4skn: I would love to allay your fears….
Mermaid3389: as you already do my love
Rumpld4skn: absolutely, as I will stand between you and anything that makes you feel threatened
Rumpld4skn: I am one of action…. Not reaction
Mermaid3389: awww…… you’re my knight in shining armor
Rumpld4skn: tis an honor, m’lady
Mermaid3389: thank you my lord
Rumpld4skn: to perform the good. for you. because I can……
Rumpld4skn: and you bring out the good….. polish it to perfection
Rumpld4skn: with your love and your gentle style
Mermaid3389: it is but a reflection of yourself
Mermaid3389: your love flows like the gentle river
Mermaid3389: into my being….. filling up my senses
Rumpld4skn: yet, mirrored by you….. so that I may see it, in me
Rumpld4skn: and you….. the oasis, which quenches my dying thirst in this arid and harsh realm, which I have been thrust…..
Mermaid3389: together we are safe and as one
Rumpld4skn: when I thought all was lost….. I woke and opened my eyes to find a most wonderful, beautiful paradise before me
Rumpld4skn: one that I wish to explore, with all the splendid wonder of a child…..
Mermaid3389: ahhhh…… but this paradise was still and of no value until you came into it’s being
Rumpld4skn: but such paradise always possessed intrinsic value, a value far and above any other
Rumpld4skn: and I could not see until I opened my eyes…..
Rumpld4skn: and saw with my mind’s eye
Mermaid3389: you’re so sweet….. and bring only the best out in me…… my love, I hate to leave your side but motherly duties call
Rumpld4skn: I will see you via the kosmos
Mermaid3389: I’ll catch you, later, my love…… take care
As you can see, he slowly rebuilt/fixed me, just by being himself.
When we referred to meeting in the Kosmos, we were talking about meeting on the astral plane in our sleep. Jace*—- being in Texas, Central Time Zone, was 2 hours ahead of me. Often after getting off the phone or chatting on line, I would feel his essence, a breeze beside me. I would then feel a tug on my soul. I would hurry up and fall asleep so that I could join him in the ethers where we would play, be together and see many things. It was always a glorious time that I would carry in my soul the next day. Love with Jace*—- was and is truly amazing.